My Journey

Been a while

2012-01-19T08:01:00.001-08:00

Its been a while since i have blogged. I have now finally getting back I to shape again. Now that the holidays are gone. I gained a lot while they were here. I got lazy I guess. With that 13 pounds came back. My mom was like u need to start losing weight again. You're getting big again. Harsh but the truth.
I got on the scale and it was 298. I was like holy shit. I never wanna see 300 pounds again. It definitely comes back fast. Weight loss is an ongoing process. I decided to get back to what I was doing before. I was successful back when I lost 50 pounds. This time I changed it up. I joined a gym. So I would have some kind of commitment with this weight loss. I joined youfit. It's an inexpensive gym. 20 bucks a month. I really wanted a gym with a pool. But it makes no sense if I can't swim. When I get get skinnier my plan is to take swimming lessons. there is no way I'm living in Florida with not knowing how to swim. Everything comes in time I guess.

Anyways well I guess I had a lot of water weight. I dropped like 13 pounds in 11 days. I know this is not the norm to lose that much in a week. It definitely tells me I need to continue. I have a goal to drop as much water as I can before the summer comes. I really want to go back to NY to visit. I would like to look like I have accomplished something in the time I left from there. I'm more determined now then ever. I just need to save the money to go. I miss my friends so much. I need to get away from here for a bit. Don't get me wrong I love the weather here. But my heart is in my. I gotta get going now and walk my two miles home. Laters.

At the park

2011-12-07T07:07:00.001-08:00

Good morning.

I decided today to post from the park I go when I go on my walk. I'm tried to keep up with my goal to lose weight. Yesterday I walked six miles. Five miles by myself. And another miles walking Rocky for his morning walk. I don't think he likes to walk far. But I wanna keep him as healthy as I can.

I believe when I woke up I was 285.8 and after my walk I was 283.6. I haven't weigh myself yet this morning. As soon as I get I will do it. Sometimes it's hard to do everything before I go out especially before rocky has had his walk.

Last nite I was texting my ex. I was telling him that I was trying I lose weight. He was like u don't need to. U look fine the way u are.And he like I like your curves. I said to him thanks I appreciate u saying that. I really do need to lose the weight. Cuz I don't wanna have to deal with diabetes like other people in my family do. He was like I just want you to be healthy. He always made me feel like my size didn't matter. He cared about me the way I was. I makes me feel good.

I will be back later to update my weight. Ttyl.

2011-12-05T21:09:00.001-08:00

Hey,

Well I guess you can say I have been slacking the past few months. Things didn't work out with my ex. He went back to the same person he was. I thought he could change but he did it to me again. It took me two months to get out of my funk with him. We are still friends. I just decided it's time to do me. If he wants to be in my life, he will make the effort.

It's not worth getting caught up in the past anymore. I have got the opportunity of a new beginning here in Florida. Not many people can say the same. I got good news today. I was offered a job here. Finally I was beginning to think that no one in Florida was getting me and I didn't fit in. I have to give it a chance to. Yes it's not New York City. But it has potentials for being better. I could never in NY were shorts in December. I do miss my friends terribly. But life has to move. I felt in the beginning that I was in a bubble watching everyone else live but me.

One of my reason for moving to Florida was to get healthier. In New York, I never had the time. It's not that my priorities were my friends and work. I never got to see me or take care of me.I let myself go in the process. Looking back, it was my fault. I got this way and now I have to change myself. No one will do it for me. One my biggest reasons why I want to get healthy is that My father has diabetes. It's virtually killing my dad. And he won't do anything to change it. My fear is that I will be just like him. I don't want to have diabetes too. Luckily I have not contact it yet.

Back in September I got down to 268.8 from 320.0. I was so proud of myself. I got lazy and let myself go again. I put on twenty pounds in over three months. I weigh myself on Sunday morning and I was 287.8. I was sad. But I realized that I have come so far to let it all go. Yes I have a lot to go to get to my goal. I will get to my goal. I would really like to be 260.0 by my birthday in February or less. I know a lot of the weight I put on was water. I can lose it again.

My weight today was 285.8. I got 25 pounds to lose. I want this so bad.

Off to bed now.

My ex

2011-09-15T00:24:00.001-07:00

Well last night was interesting. I was on the phone with a friend. I got call waited from a number that I didn't know. At first I wasn't gonna pick it up. I picked it up and it was my ex. I was like wow. Where did this cone from? When I left NY, we left on so so terms. I did get to say goodbye to him. But what I wanted was for him to tell me to stay.

We weren't together a long time. A couple of months. U know when u just vibe with someone. He made me So happy when we were together. I felt safe and secure with him. He was the only guy I could sleep at night with. I thought things were going well. And he decided that us being together wasn't the right thing for him. I was heart broken. We remain friends. I felt that there was more to it. Afterwards things became awkward between us. I wanted what we had and he didn't.

Anyways back to the present now. Tonight we talk like no time had past. I even got him to say I miss u several times. But in the back of my head was like where is this coming from? I know he wants to see me. but why did it take six months for him to do that. I don't want to get attached to him cuz it took so long to get here. But I do want him in my life. I wish he was here with me. Well see what happens.

2011-09-12T20:54:00.001-07:00

I'm so blah today. That's all I have to say.

My Weekend

2011-09-11T20:41:00.000-07:00

Well as always the weekend goes to quickly. On Saturday I had a slip, I had Chinese food with my parents. We went out and I didn't really have a choice. I was so proud of myself earlier cuz I got down to 270.8 after my walk. And to blow it like that. But I'm human. One thing I don't understand is why I retain so much water. Like I feel like I put on three pounds when I drink water. Who knows???

I woke up at on sunday at 274.2. My day was all out of wack. Normally I exercise in the morning. I had to help my parents put some stuff in their storage room. Then we went food shopping. I relaxed an hour to only do two hours of yard work. I cut down my first tree. It wasn't big at all. But I couldn't stand looking at it anymore. I'm sure my tree hugging neighbors will hate me. Then I did my 3 mile walk which pooped me out. Now I'm off to watch some tv and sleep.

Laters.

My day

2011-09-09T14:16:00.001-07:00

Well my day start at 915 which was a miracle cuz Rocky never let's me sleep past 815 in the morning. I do miss sleeping late. Maybe one day I will get to sleep again. Havin' a puppy is work! Otherwise I did my 4 mile walk. I swear I lost like two pounds at least on it. Maybe I should be jogging. Im not sure if that is a wise choice. I feel like I need to lose more weight before I can take on the task of jogging. I feel at 274 pounds jogging might be too much for my body. Plus it's still too hot here in Florida. Granted I see a lot of other person doing it. But they are in better shape then I am.
I'm excited about going to disney in a few weeks. And I'm trying to lose as much weight as possible before I go. I know I will gain some weight being there. How much can four days in Disney do? anyway now I'm off to get dinner at my parents.

Second one today

2011-09-08T19:33:00.000-07:00

I thought I would put some pics up. It's been such a long time since I had a blog. I think my last one was on xanga. That was a long time ago. I feels weird but exciting at the same time. Anyways off to watch the jersey shore. Laterz.

My First Post

2011-09-08T14:06:00.000-07:00

Hey everyone. My name is Patty. I'm 31 years old and live in southwest Florida. I just moved here from New York. Yes I know another New York transplants to Florida. I have been here for six months which has gone by quickly. Somethings have changed since I moved here. I got a puppy named Rocky. I'm still trying to find a job here.

I have always been an overweight child who grew into an overweight adult. Yes I have at some points in my life, I have tried to lose weight. When I was around 15 years old, I lost around 60 pounds. I went from being 240 to 180. But as time went on I gain all of it back and more.

Let's get back to the present now. Moving to Florida was not an easy choice. I left my life, friends and job. At the time I was running out of options and didn't want to be stuck. It's definitely not easy to live in NY. Florida was an opportunity for me to live some where else and see what happens. Part of my reason for moving here was to get healthy. I never had the time to do it when I was in NY. There was alway excuses and stuff happening. Let's face it we all have excuses.

When I moved here I was about 320. Yes i said it 320 pounds. I knew I had to do something. I started to cut down on what I was eating. My old job I worked the night shift and got home late. Oh course eating at 100 am in the morning is bound to put some weight any person. I knew when I was here I didnt have to eat that late. About a month later I had my first doctor's appointment here. I got on the scale in the office and it said 313.6. I was down pounds. Then I met the doctor. Now I have gone to many doctors in my life. Yes many of them told me, you need to lose weight. Fine. This doctor that I went here was like you need to lose weight now. She told mm my thyroid may be the problem and I needed a scan of it to see if it's the problem. And basically asked me if I was depressed and was trying to push pills on me. Now I may be a lot of things. She assumed that just because I was fat that I was depressed. I was never so insulted in my life. People can be fat and be happy. So she was like come back in a month and let's see what's going on with everything.

I went back a month later. And of course the sonogram of my thyroid was fine. My blood work was fine to except that was I anemic. I was happy to hear that I was healthy to some degree. My next dr was the gyno dr. For the most part of my life, I have always had a normal period. I skipped maybe three times in my life. I have friends who had PCOS. At the time, my period was being weird. He was like you have PCOS. And you need to lose 70 pounds at least to get things back to normal. Here is Birth Control to help you. For some reason, I have issues with birth control. I get these bad headaches on it. It's a like never endind sinus headache. So I left his office just dumb founded. I was like really have PCOS. So I finally went to endocologist. I told him everything. I think I gave him a big laugh. He was like you don't have PCOS. What you do have is Vitimin D issue. I was like I knew something wasn't right. He did give me some type of peace of mind. I believe I was around 300 went I went to him.

After leaving I decided it's time to finally start to lose weight. I gave myself a challenge to see how much I could lose in 90 days. Starting on June 1st. I didn't have a job . So now is the opportunity to do this. I started walking 3 miles a day . I have cut out soda. I believe my last cup of soda was in the end of June.I drink so much water now. I don't get as bloated as I was before. I started to lose some more weight. I went from 320 to 276. So of my clothes are getting bigger. I wish I could lose it all over night. But I didn't get fat overnight so I won't get skinny overnight either. I haven't really decided how much I really want to lose. I know I want to get down to at least 150. But I have to see what I look like at the size to know if I need to lose more. I do think have gotten a good start at least. I hope having this blog will help me. I do need somewhere to vent. I will be back later to update more.