Wednesday, September 12, 2012


Well I tried to jog. I think I made it four blocks which is a joke. But at least its a start. I felt so tried after walking almost 4 miles. I can do this if I try.

I wish I could find a running partner. Maybe one day. Now I'm off to dream land.

Tuesday, September 11, 2012

A new start


It's been a while since I last blogged on here. I have been busy the past few months. I finally found a job here. I really happy there for the most part. My weight has stalled for the most part. I have gain a little back. I'm in the cycle where I lost weight for a lil bit and then gain it  back. I'm so sick of being in my 280's that I don't wanna see it anymore. I have decide that I need to put my mind to it. I can't keep doing this to myself. I have so many things to look forward to.

All I wanna do is lose this weight and get on with my life. The only person that is stopping me from doing that is myself. It's funny how we want something so bad. But yet we sabotage ourselves. I really can't blame anyone for it. So what I have decided to do is that I need some accountability for myself. I try so hard to control what I eat at work. As soon as I get home, it's like a free for all. I need to stop that. I feel like I binge. There is no reason for it.

So what I want to do is make a commitment to myself. Where I will try to the best of my ability to try. It's not to much to eat right and exercise. I really do enjoy walking around here. I was always a walker when I was in New York. But then again I had no choice  with no car. My legs and MTA were my only option.

The other day while I was walking I was wondering why don't I run.I think I don't out of fear. I'm so worried about what other people will think about me doing it. I don't want to look stupid. Here I'm 287 pounds and I'm running. I see so many people that our my size here and they are doing it. So tomorrow I'm gonna try it. I had one of those programs c25k programs on my iphone. I want to try it. Something gotta give. I have a gym membership that I don't use. I'm throwing away money each month for it.

My Goals
  1. Lose weight so I can be more healthier
  2. Try to lose 25 pounds before I visit New York again.
  3. Run on a treadmill
  4. Make it into a size 22 soon.
  5. Eat less
  6. Make commitment to go see nutrionist to help me eat better.
Now I gotta get ready for bed and to walk rocky for the night.


Thursday, January 19, 2012

Been a while

Its been a while since i have blogged. I have now finally getting back I to shape again. Now that the holidays are gone. I gained a lot while they were here. I got lazy I guess. With that 13 pounds came back. My mom was like u need to start losing weight again. You're getting big again. Harsh but the truth.
I got on the scale and it was 298. I was like holy shit. I never wanna see 300 pounds again. It definitely comes back fast. Weight loss is an ongoing process. I decided to get back to what I was doing before. I was successful back when I lost 50 pounds. This time I changed it up. I joined a gym. So I would have some kind of commitment with this weight loss. I joined youfit. It's an inexpensive gym. 20 bucks a month. I really wanted a gym with a pool. But it makes no sense if I can't swim. When I get get skinnier my plan is to take swimming lessons. there is no way I'm living in Florida with not knowing how to swim. Everything comes in time I guess.

Anyways well I guess I had a lot of water weight. I dropped like 13 pounds in 11 days. I know this is not the norm to lose that much in a week. It definitely tells me I need to continue. I have a goal to drop as much water as I can before the summer comes. I really want to go back to NY to visit. I would like to look like I have accomplished something in the time I left from there. I'm more determined now then ever. I just need to save the money to go. I miss my friends so much. I need to get away from here for a bit. Don't get me wrong I love the weather here. But my heart is in my. I gotta get going now and walk my two miles home. Laters.