It's been a while since I last blogged on here. I have been busy the past few months. I finally found a job here. I really happy there for the most part. My weight has stalled for the most part. I have gain a little back. I'm in the cycle where I lost weight for a lil bit and then gain it back. I'm so sick of being in my 280's that I don't wanna see it anymore. I have decide that I need to put my mind to it. I can't keep doing this to myself. I have so many things to look forward to.
All I wanna do is lose this weight and get on with my life. The only person that is stopping me from doing that is myself. It's funny how we want something so bad. But yet we sabotage ourselves. I really can't blame anyone for it. So what I have decided to do is that I need some accountability for myself. I try so hard to control what I eat at work. As soon as I get home, it's like a free for all. I need to stop that. I feel like I binge. There is no reason for it.
So what I want to do is make a commitment to myself. Where I will try to the best of my ability to try. It's not to much to eat right and exercise. I really do enjoy walking around here. I was always a walker when I was in New York. But then again I had no choice with no car. My legs and MTA were my only option.
The other day while I was walking I was wondering why don't I run.I think I don't out of fear. I'm so worried about what other people will think about me doing it. I don't want to look stupid. Here I'm 287 pounds and I'm running. I see so many people that our my size here and they are doing it. So tomorrow I'm gonna try it. I had one of those programs c25k programs on my iphone. I want to try it. Something gotta give. I have a gym membership that I don't use. I'm throwing away money each month for it.
- Lose weight so I can be more healthier
- Try to lose 25 pounds before I visit New York again.
- Run on a treadmill
- Make it into a size 22 soon.
- Eat less
- Make commitment to go see nutrionist to help me eat better.